Words I got to get off my chest

You know what?  I have had so many people tell me that "Love" will come around when you least expect it.  well guess what, mr and ms words of nonsense advice,  I have leasted expected it for over 12 years and nothing has come my way.  so now what ya got to say.!!    Maybe it is the fact that I am not the skinny twit that most everyone wants..  maybe it isn't.   who knows.    I guess I am destined to be alone for the rest of my life.  Alone is a very lonely thing to be...  I have met a few people on Facebook over the last few years and they are very nice people but nothing ever comes out of it.  why?  I am not sure.  but sure hope one day someone does come around.  I got a lot of love to give to someone...


I am still upset over KC Pride.   last year I went on Sunday with a couple of friends and was alone the whole day.  never met anyone "period",  and this year.  I went on Saturday and Sunday and Not ONE soul spoke to me.  I felt like I was not welcome at all.   I bet you are gonna say.  Well did You speak to anyone there?  Nope!! shyness is a bad thing to have when you are wanting to speak to people, plus I didn't see anyone I knew..  the few people that was gonna visit with me didn't come or left before I got there..  We even went to the new club "Lux" on Saturday night and nothing there as well...  but Thanks to my dear friends that went with me it made the day fun.  Not because of any attention but because we got away from work, home and relaxed, and watched people...  Maybe next year it will be better.  if not it will probably be the last one I go to in KC and focus my attention on going to ST Louis Pride.  maybe get more attention there....

I have people that tell me all the time that I am loved and etc.  well,  Spending my days home and alone doesn't make me fell like I have any friends at all....  if you truly care about someone, that is single, make sure they are included in "some" things.  it might help them out and it might even help you out.  you just never know what might happen or how someone is feeling about life and etc.

Blessing to all...